months after months

10months ago my heartbeat skipped for the most lovely moment in my life. my crush for four years is finally making a move:D

9months ago, he confessed and he asked me on a date. october 7th, we held hands on our first date.

8months ago, we sit for our final high school year exam. still happily in love and interrupted our study mood dramtically, just because we're so in love<3 style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">7months ago, we went for our high school prom together. oh yes, it was awesome with him, we hand in hand, publicly. he's a shy boy

6months ago, we went to a highland and have our first trip ever with friends( yes, we have protective parents) we slept together and make out till we fell asleep. i took his first kiss away. It's the most perfect kiss ever

5months ago, i worked in a place and needed his help. We have the whole room at that time, so we made out even more. Not forgetting our dates from lunch time till shopping complex closes<3 style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">want to leave each other.

4months ago, more making out sessions plus, went to his house when his family's away to have some privacy time. everything was just so perfect.

3months ago, we celebrated our half year anniversary. I never felt any happier b4. Went all the way to klcc twin tower. Nice scenery. Nice dating place. Its is where i felt so certain he is "The One"

2months ago, he didn't want to wish for our happy 7months. Thats where everything falls apart. *poof!* Without a warning, without a reason. And on May 29th, he said, 'Let's juz try to be friends'.

1month ago, he went outstation to study his piloting course. leaving me all alone, here. Alone. Claiming he's busy, claiming he's tired. In other words, no time at all for me.

Today, i'm not feeling any better because,
mhmm, i believe its true. But then again, i believe you’ll be the one i ever love the most too. Purely love. Don't ever ever forget this later part.


I like rainbow lines, dont you?(; Because, i spent 7rainbow months with my dear

And yet, i've survived for another chapter in life

College was alright(:
I guess i can say i couldn't ask for a better course(: (:
With awesome people and awesome lecturers. (psst, lecturers are hot too!)
But i'll never like how the fact i'm not starting this wonderful chapter of life with you. I couldn't share my happiness, my joy, my excitement with youu.
I couldn't share my first week of college struggles, my fast coming pile of courseworks that i need you mentally and physically to help me pull through all this *tasks* in life.
I couldn't do it myself. I'm out of breath. I need a- someone. Not just anyone randomly.
Why aren't you willing to do so? I can't breath anymore.

Btw, i like chemistry(: and i loveee psychology/ sociology / anthropology. Nature sciences and social sciences are awesome. I like science(: And i would like to learn one day why you, you and all of you react this way. Which i hope there'll be a solid scientific reason behind it.
I hope in all these i'll grow maturely and stronger as a human being. I'll cross over the bridge. After all, i've cried you a river and work hard in building the bridge just to cross over it. I'll cross, one day. Hopefully. And i'll never come back.
But then again,

Btw, i went for a orchestra audition. *fingers crossed* I hope i'll pass it. Did i tell you i love music too?(:
Have a great weekend everyone! I like fridays and i learn how to appreciate a weekend more. Since college is such a hectic thing. I have 3 tests and a presentation on the 3rd week of college! so yup, hope your weekend will be a good one. Spend it with your love one, please?<3

p/s: thanks for reading, it means a lot to me.


iloveyouph

Hmm

Wonder what happens on the first day of college life
Wonder who will i meet? Anymore angels out there?
Wonder how will i cope with the amount of subjects i have
Wonder what happens if i face failure once again
Wonder how should i manage my time
Wonder what happens if i don't get to sleep late anymore
Wonder what happens starting life w/o the lil someone
Wonder what happens if the lecturers hates me
Wonder what happens if i couldn't make new good friends

Dear God, i pray that you'll keep me safe in Your hands. (I know you will)
Wash away my fear dear Lord. That I'll trust in You and let You to be in control.
Lead me dear Lord. I'm lost without You.
Be with me. Be with me. I love you Lord, more than anything.
In Jesus most precious and worthy name i pray, Amen.

And how this song came by after i typed amen(:

"Because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, All fear is gone,
Because I know, I know,
He owns the future.
And life is worth the living, Just because He lives."

Yes it is Dear Lord. Thank you(:

I hope i did a lil sth good here in this post too. I hope you'll know that the Lord God Almighty is there, for all of us. No one to be excluded, That's Him(: Awesome!
Have a blessed day, will you?(: