It's Christmas time of the year

Christmas.

The word that i often get excited to.

The word that I mention often accompanied by words like 'I can't wait for this festival'.

The word that reminds me of the pretty and happy things.

The prettiest festival ever.

But is it just a festival?

Festival is defined as "An occasion for feasting or celebration, especially a day or time of religious significance that recurs at regular intervals."

Celebration? Yes. The birth of Jesus Christ.

A time in remembrance of the greatest gift we are given.

A time that we exchange gifts among our love ones not because of mere culture but,

a time where we practice showing love to our loved ones just like how our Father in heaven did.

A time that we should ponder upon the great gift God given to us and not santa claus or elves.

It's been almost a year and 2011 is coming to an end.

If you ask me? I would say it's not one of the best years. In other words, I don't like this year.

But God is good. He took away the things I love, the things i would like to hold on to,

BUT. He gave me someone, a very special someone to accompany me to go on with all these obstacles and hurdles; to help me grow in Him.

Steve Green - People need the Lord.

Happy Birthday Jesus.

Have a merry blessed Christmas everyone.

The other half

He-lo.

It's a lil odd if you thought you have no more strength to go on- to whatever you're chasing after, you found a reason to gain that strength.

A strength stronger than before.

It's a lil odd if you fell out of love and you thought you will never fall in love ever again, you fall- in love.

A love that is more cautious, but more precious and genuine than before.

I call those? God's work(:

Confused

So is there a test where it tells you an accurate result if you're in.. love?
Other than the usual skips of heartbeats, and common signs.
Those are only accurate to certain measure, no?
But really, what is love?
How can you fall in love all over again after a painful heartbreak?
How sincere can you get from your first?
How much will you let your heart knowing
there is a tiny bit of possibility call breakup (a feeling that exerts a pain you once been, that heels oh so slowly, oh so painfully that it could only be recovered through an awful amount of time)
that you hope won't happen but there's always a but.
How much can you gamble your heart on someone again?
How really can that love be compared to that first?
Will it be as magical? Could you really let go and fall.. in love, again?

My dream

I have a dream.

A dream where i tell people what's life all about, in my point of view.

A dream where I can motivate people to see the great things in life.

A dream to tell people that everything is fair because God is a God of justice.

A dream to make people realize that for every strength, there is a weakness.

A dream to make people realize that for every weakness, there is a strength.

A dream to make people realize after the realization of the above two points, there is nothing worth fighting about, no one wins, no one lose. It's all about society's perception.

A dream to know that there will always be a better tomorrow.

A dream to know that you are who you are, no less than the others that you think is perfect, you just need to find the special point in you.

A dream to know that law of attraction works because there is a God above, and when you ask, you shall receive.

A dream to always be happy, to be truly happy.

I have a dream where on day, I'll publish all these and many more in a book,

To share the view of my life.

To share the laughters in my my life.

To share the reason I smile in the midst of difficulties and hardships.

To share the reason I let go.

To share the reason I place those little things in my heart.

To share the reason I still believe in.

To share the reason I hold onto to impossibilities.

To share my dreams.

A dream, to share.

Photos

I was scanning through a month worth of pictures, wait, i meant for the month of June.
10days worth of pictures. I couldn't comprehend how many pictures I've took, and how they varies through different events. How each of them speaks of a thousand words in my mind.

The amount of changes in my June is going to be drastic. Mind you, i hate changes. But i guess my optimism helped me pull through. Like hey, changes are always for the better right? for you to grow, for you to learn, for you to face the unexpected, to challenge yourself to the extend that you never know you can aaccomplish. YOU'RE ALWAYS BETTER THAN WHAT YOU ARE! always(:

Back to the topic, I like how pictures are one of the most wonderful inventions. How it is able to capture the smiles, the emotions, the surroundings, the people who were there, the colours, the memories.

So capture every moment in you heart and in the flashes of technology.

much love,

xxx

Heartbeats

When your heart is broken for what felt like a million year.

Then, time allows, you were eye-ing at that college hottie that makes your heart skip a beat all over again.

My heart is alive!(;

That joy because of that college hottie, that you felt young and flirtatious again. Priceless(:

Hey dear

So how have you been lately?

I miss you

New year's change perhaps?

Is it this new year that's making me so busy?

Is it this new year that made me so indecisive?

Is it this new year with new beginnings and new start made me change from what I was?

Is it this new year that made me discover who I really am and catching hold of all my strengths? Did i use it too much?

Is it this new year that made me a really optimistic person and making me closer to my international motivational speaker dream?

Is it this new year that I think I'm not that lovable after all and make my self esteem lower in-spite of the optimism I've discovered from self made quotes?

Is it this new year that I've changed into a worried freak?

Is it this new year that make me enjoy my year less and making me miserable?

Is it this new year that making me more sensitive?

Is it this new year that i should put all the blame on it?

Is this how i should spend my 2011?

What happened?

I dont know myself anymoree

And i dont want to discover myself, cuz the more i do, the more depress and lower self esteem i have. The more sensitive i became.

Aren't I still as naive as always?

Aren't I who I was last year?

Why me again?

Is this what people undergo before the gain of SUCCESS? how long more? how far away am I from it? I'm still a teenager.. Is it fair for such destruction I have to face everyday?

Heart day

Happy Valentine's day to all(: Have a great lovey dovey awesome day!

After all, love is in the air(:

I hope;

Broken hearted to be healed,

Braveness to love again, just like you never been hurt!

Happy Valentine's day once again(:

Ps: remember, is not only for couples. Rmb your daddy, mummy, sister, brother, great friend, awesome friends, sweet friend, literally everyone to thank and appreciate for!(:

Bug hug!

lovee,

yours truly(:

two zero one one

Hello(:

Havent been blogging since November 2010! wow, guess i've been really busy:/

So yeah, had finished with my first semester and had a good refreshing one month break in december!

Havent been blogging or do my rantings about HIM. Guess i'm pretty much over him(: *jumps of joy and relief*

So, my life without him( since i've always talk about him)

Though this is pretty much related to him,

but i guess after losing him i realized that i'm a pretty insecure low in confidence person. Always thought i was the otherwise.

Still, hurt.

Still, afraid to try to fall in love again.

Still, have the fear of breaking hard.

Still, dontknowwhathappened.

Still, wants an explanation.

Still, carrying the smile as an disguise asset.

I'm still hurt inside with the smile and amount of laughters i carry.

Because when one smile, it doesn't mean you're happy but it can also mean that you wasnt the person you're smiling to, to be happy. And for my case, *smiles* i want everyone to be happy.

Just that i wonder can i make my smile comes along with a truly happy soul.

Figures of life