LOVE makes the world go round
LOVE made things different
LOVE makes the ups
LOVE made me cheerful and HAPPYYYY
But without the one you love, loving you back,
it hurts
its sad
things that bring you joy doesnt really work because you lose your sunshineee
even though you were cared by many, its never the same again
My birthday was a few days ago..
Nopee, i wasn't a single second happy.
It was loaded with fb comments, msgs, text, phone calls and everything thoughtful from your friend.
But not loaded with the love one, at all.
Break up was juz less then a month ago, the pain is still there.
OH NOES.
i dont like this feeling:(
help?
thoughts.
27 June 2010
14 June 2010
I miss you dear
Holding hands.
No more holding on to youu?
Sitting/ being on you.
No more sitting on your legs and staring at youu?
Making out.
No more holding on to youu?
Sitting/ being on you.
No more sitting on your legs and staring at youu?
Making out.
No more love bites or sloppy kisses with youu?
What happened to all the promises you made?
It all just swept away?
What happened to all the memories we made?
No more many new great ones to come?
What happened to you being loyal?
Loyalty is not a word anymore?
What happened to you appreciating me?
Don't appreciate US anymore?
What happened to 'i'm sad when you're sad?'
Damn it, i'm sad. It doesn't hit you a single bit now?
What happened to L is for love Y is for you?
It doesn't exist in your vocabulary now?
What happened to US? What happened?
Wasn't everything as awesome as it is?
Wasn't i loving you enough? Or was it too much?
Why a sudden surprise?
Why did we break up?
Why don't you love me anymore?
Why wasn't i given a chance?
Why did you leave me hanging?
What did i do? What did i not do?
HUHH?
But you know what, i made up my mind for the better.
You don't even deserve me!>:( and i chased after youu for so many years, to get an unripe fruit.
I'll never be fruitful with you. You're not even riped yet.
Thus the sour-ness eyh.
I would like to say YOU SUCKK! But then, i'll not say that.
I KNOW, you've made a lot of sacrifices. Normal things for a normal guy, but it takes a lot of courage for a person like you.
Who am i to complain?
I got us into this mushy-ness.
I got us into everything that we've been through together.
I probably forced you along the way.
I got us together.
So for that, i'll live with it. And i'll stay STRONG.
Never ever ever believe that love can change a guy eyh?
Never ever ever fully trust in someone eyh?
Never ever ever put your high hopes confidently eyh?
never ever ever feel to secure eyh?
I LEARNT MY LESSON.
A very painful lesson.
Filled with endless flowing of tears that the person i'm tear-ing for won't even give a damn in it.( I believe you do a lil, though)
But then, tomorrow is a mystery.
If you weren't meant for me, i'm gonna throw you away like a smelly shoe and buy a new one. New arrival!
I won't be as heartless as you , though. I'll remember you.
An eye opener to love reality.
So what i won't married my first boyfriend.
As long as i don't marry the wrong one.
I love you, ph.
It hurts.
LGMH. He doesn't love me anymore. But there's still hopes right?
I hope i don't regret having you. I hope you remain a sweet memory in my mind.
Not the later detail on you dumping me heartlessly.
Don't forget me?
I'll always always remember you?
You are very special to me! you know that.
LOVEEE
Your piggy.
What happened to all the promises you made?
It all just swept away?
What happened to all the memories we made?
No more many new great ones to come?
What happened to you being loyal?
Loyalty is not a word anymore?
What happened to you appreciating me?
Don't appreciate US anymore?
What happened to 'i'm sad when you're sad?'
Damn it, i'm sad. It doesn't hit you a single bit now?
What happened to L is for love Y is for you?
It doesn't exist in your vocabulary now?
What happened to US? What happened?
Wasn't everything as awesome as it is?
Wasn't i loving you enough? Or was it too much?
Why a sudden surprise?
Why did we break up?
Why don't you love me anymore?
Why wasn't i given a chance?
Why did you leave me hanging?
What did i do? What did i not do?
HUHH?
But you know what, i made up my mind for the better.
You don't even deserve me!>:( and i chased after youu for so many years, to get an unripe fruit.
I'll never be fruitful with you. You're not even riped yet.
Thus the sour-ness eyh.
I would like to say YOU SUCKK! But then, i'll not say that.
I KNOW, you've made a lot of sacrifices. Normal things for a normal guy, but it takes a lot of courage for a person like you.
Who am i to complain?
I got us into this mushy-ness.
I got us into everything that we've been through together.
I probably forced you along the way.
I got us together.
So for that, i'll live with it. And i'll stay STRONG.
Never ever ever believe that love can change a guy eyh?
Never ever ever fully trust in someone eyh?
Never ever ever put your high hopes confidently eyh?
never ever ever feel to secure eyh?
I LEARNT MY LESSON.
A very painful lesson.
Filled with endless flowing of tears that the person i'm tear-ing for won't even give a damn in it.( I believe you do a lil, though)
But then, tomorrow is a mystery.
If you weren't meant for me, i'm gonna throw you away like a smelly shoe and buy a new one. New arrival!
I won't be as heartless as you , though. I'll remember you.
An eye opener to love reality.
So what i won't married my first boyfriend.
As long as i don't marry the wrong one.
I love you, ph.
It hurts.
LGMH. He doesn't love me anymore. But there's still hopes right?
I hope i don't regret having you. I hope you remain a sweet memory in my mind.
Not the later detail on you dumping me heartlessly.
Don't forget me?
I'll always always remember you?
You are very special to me! you know that.
LOVEEE
Your piggy.
05 June 2010
Life goes on...
Well, what an awful month of May I had. Its awful. The month I cried the most in my life besides my baby days.
It was a awesome six months with my boy. Its half a year alright! And he was my first. Whats more important is, we had love in between to tie us. Then the 7th month came, where he didn't want to wish us on our 7 months. And it's where i sense something. Talked to him the next day(Saturday), he didn't want to reply. On Sunday, He told me he need a break. I got shocked. WHAT IN THE WORLD HAPPENED?
And a month later, i ask if he wanted us to split, with avoiding the question from me a few times and denying he have no idea what to say, he ended up saying ' let's just be like friends'. I asked him why, he said, 'nothing, i just want to see what will happen'. Leave me hanging.
Sometimes, life is just like that isn't it? You don't like to put trust to it, but when you do, you do it with a lot of courage and you trusted it full heartedly, and there was hope. But when all this fall apart without warning, ouch. Doesn't it make you feel like a failure? And those trust were your strength too and it brings happiness. WHY IT HAPPENED? It's just life isn't it. I'll be stronger next time, IF i still have the courage, the trust, the hope received, the happiness i will get. Not a stab on the heart, not the tears that won't seem to stop falling, not the failure feeling. It hurts, it just hurt without warning. How much more courage could i give? How much more trust can i give to people? How much more strength will i have? All for this thing call happiness? I do not know. But i hope i still have it, not soon i will receive it, but i will gain back my courage, trust, and hope just for my happiness, just for the sake of living.
So what happened if my boyfriend dumped me? Life goes on. He don't give a damn! Why should i? But i will , cuz my heart is not cold. I'll be nice, i'll be nicee...
It was a awesome six months with my boy. Its half a year alright! And he was my first. Whats more important is, we had love in between to tie us. Then the 7th month came, where he didn't want to wish us on our 7 months. And it's where i sense something. Talked to him the next day(Saturday), he didn't want to reply. On Sunday, He told me he need a break. I got shocked. WHAT IN THE WORLD HAPPENED?
And a month later, i ask if he wanted us to split, with avoiding the question from me a few times and denying he have no idea what to say, he ended up saying ' let's just be like friends'. I asked him why, he said, 'nothing, i just want to see what will happen'. Leave me hanging.
Sometimes, life is just like that isn't it? You don't like to put trust to it, but when you do, you do it with a lot of courage and you trusted it full heartedly, and there was hope. But when all this fall apart without warning, ouch. Doesn't it make you feel like a failure? And those trust were your strength too and it brings happiness. WHY IT HAPPENED? It's just life isn't it. I'll be stronger next time, IF i still have the courage, the trust, the hope received, the happiness i will get. Not a stab on the heart, not the tears that won't seem to stop falling, not the failure feeling. It hurts, it just hurt without warning. How much more courage could i give? How much more trust can i give to people? How much more strength will i have? All for this thing call happiness? I do not know. But i hope i still have it, not soon i will receive it, but i will gain back my courage, trust, and hope just for my happiness, just for the sake of living.
So what happened if my boyfriend dumped me? Life goes on. He don't give a damn! Why should i? But i will , cuz my heart is not cold. I'll be nice, i'll be nicee...
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