Hey dear

So how have you been lately?

I miss you

New year's change perhaps?

Is it this new year that's making me so busy?

Is it this new year that made me so indecisive?

Is it this new year with new beginnings and new start made me change from what I was?

Is it this new year that made me discover who I really am and catching hold of all my strengths? Did i use it too much?

Is it this new year that made me a really optimistic person and making me closer to my international motivational speaker dream?

Is it this new year that I think I'm not that lovable after all and make my self esteem lower in-spite of the optimism I've discovered from self made quotes?

Is it this new year that I've changed into a worried freak?

Is it this new year that make me enjoy my year less and making me miserable?

Is it this new year that making me more sensitive?

Is it this new year that i should put all the blame on it?

Is this how i should spend my 2011?

What happened?

I dont know myself anymoree

And i dont want to discover myself, cuz the more i do, the more depress and lower self esteem i have. The more sensitive i became.

Aren't I still as naive as always?

Aren't I who I was last year?

Why me again?

Is this what people undergo before the gain of SUCCESS? how long more? how far away am I from it? I'm still a teenager.. Is it fair for such destruction I have to face everyday?